The GREATEST God......

 Hey my beautiful friends:.............

WELL god is good....I am very blessed......AS of a few weeks ago all tests came back negative on both cancers ....WE are going to do colonoscopy an endoscopy every six months.....I have been focusing getting back to normal( never again)but a brand new journey ahead and god leading the way....I pray and pray daily for all cancer friends and anyone effected by cancer.   Cancer is scary but each breathe I am given I am extremely grateful.... THank Thank you for the prayers and calls.....I am very appreciative of all the LOVE,,,You guys ROCK..

Dr VISIT

 Since being home from Hospital  I have tried taking it slowly  plus my body is yelling “ Slow down” but it is hard until I stop and remind myself of conversations I had with God while in hospital 

1 don’t worry 

2 be grateful 

3 mindful of God at all times 

4 Forgive more 

Open to anything God leads me ,,,,,,,

But I had the greatest time catching up with 3 of my dear Dear friends who drove all the way from McKinney ( one lives in Van Alstyne)to check on me.      That meant the world to me     Thanks Pam , Sheryl and Lisa S.   Love you all 3 ! 

Dr.Visit went great ……He said they got all the cancer and all 19 lymph nodes were benign 

I could not be more blessed and just feel God is leading me to something because of my humbleness and openness to him ….There were several idols God took care of for me and I get it …my hair was everything to me.  If it looked bad I felt bad.    Kinda controlled me …My worrying about my wrinkles and sagging.    I still want to look good but not worry so much about my appearance but more of me being present.   A smile , hug or just a wave to someone because I can   Thanks to God      Cancer and massive surgery can be a negative effect on you and your family if you let it ..   My Family is tight again , and my boyfriend is amazing but without God on this journey this young relationship could have gone any direction.  Right now all  my directions are going excellent and Blessed……I still have stage 1 colon but that is next …

Dr. Was glad I was already walking and eating so well.   He said I was more of the 60 % and up patient to make it by 3 years and more..    I have passed all tests so far …. He was impressed with everything …I am going with this is as Awesome News and Thanks a Million for the prayers     They worked and still need them but let’s all keep Cancer of any type in our prayers …..Thank You God for everything you have done ..the road to recovery will be long but I am fortunate to be here ….  

HOME Thank you God

I am home as of last Friday .....The first 2 days I spent realizing I was out of the hospital ....seeing the outdoors after 30 days in hospital....I felt like someone who was in a coma for 30 days ...The birds, deers.and people.......Everything was new and beautiful ......I still have the pain ( nothing like the hospital).....rehab is before me and I am ready to conquer it too......Life is very short and so much of my mind was around negativism .....No More, I am thankful I did esophagus surgery and emergency spleen 

removal.   I know in my heart all your prayers were heard and exactly why I made it through it.   I felt all the love.   THANK YOU SO MUCH       

My brother was there the entire time . Brad Woodard    My Angel ..........

Bruce my )SO) was amazing too.   Martha for keeping my tennis teams updated.....

My son and Cass keeping my dog and keeping KK in my grand daughter thoughts

TO EVERYONE     GOD IS GOOD AND I AM BLESSED

ON a liquid diet , no driving , walk daily and love my God 

post surgery

I am praying for gods guidance in writing this post BECAUSE of the unimaginal pain this has been going  through my body...  I will be real in saying I have questioned   why me ?????????(never once did i question before surgery 

not only a rare form of cancer but a very low survivial rate and toppled with unbelievble pain that a million drs could not educate or prepare you for the pain physically and emotionally .......I cannot even wrap around myBrain people having this surgery with no family member staying overnight for the firts 10 days ....the magnitudee of pain is beyond anything ever including birthing,hysterecromy sober,divorce,losing my bestfriend (mom) etc...........I am launching my ownwebsite andI this Blog will be a huge part to be an advocate for this surgery

my brother Brad 💖never left my side 24/7 and worked his full time job too.  i could not talk because of the pain,  BUT him beeng there was beyond anything iwill never forget.  he got a sinus infection while there beacause he was doing both ends for 15 days because he would not leave my side    during those 15 days I had 4 operation typer surgeries         2 deathly and 2 serious.......the expectation at the beginning wre 7 t0 10 days in hospital      due to complications 2 more weeks have been added.     I made Brad go home yesterday because he has a life he stoppe for me for 15 days....I had to let everyone know it is sad to not have someone with you the firtst 10 days ....i am crying now even after 23 days here thinking of the upmost fear a patient endures without someone there for you.   human to human contact there is no better wat to hlp endure this tremedous pain ........Thank you Brad I love you Bunches......I am up enough to give updates when i can    i am on my own.       my son has been here when he can and Bruce too...   there is not possible way without all your prayers iwould have made through one minute.   i am beyond blessed 

The first and most painfail Esophagus surgery went well until my spleen erupted and that pain toppled any pain .....then after that my blood pressure plummeted..in the area wheret you die...thatwas 7 hours of NO PAIN meds ......................I honestly could not think, blink,breathe everything hurt and no relief....

today is Jan 11 and i have not slept change of meds again...... had a crying episode and will see a councler soon.......keep the prayer coming we are hopfully I will be out by end of mnth           the love is felt   thank you 

i have begged and begged for GODS Armour to wrap me tight AND EVERY SINGLE CANCER PATIENT SUFFERING RIGHT NOW.  

I AM LAYING HERE AT 3PM CRYING FOR THOSE I HAD NO ONE THE FIRST 14 DAYS     EVERDAY IT CHANGES WITH MY CANCER,   BRUCE 😘OPENED HIS DOORS FOR (SO GRATFUL) BUT HAVE NOT BEEN USED FOR ALL THE COMPLICATIONS

HERE ARE SOME PICS AND THE WHYS 

SO MANY MORE PICS WAS JUST UPDATING FOR NOW AND THANKING GOR THE PRAYERS    ALL MY FAMILY MEMBERS WHOHAVE PICS JUST COMMENT ON HERE AND SHOW THEM.  THANK YOUGOD FOR LOVING ME     

Surgery Time is here

Sitting here the day before surgery numb and anxious until I stopped and thanked God.  I honestly feel the need to thank god all day for giving me another chance to live.  This surgery will be very intense and tough but I got this BECAUSE I have God in my corner .   Do you have God in your corner ?If not , I highly recommend getting to know him !!!!!!!!!

Below is family pics of our early Christmas this year in broken Bow ……Everyone came and wow what an awesome time we had .   My brother Craig came in after over 2 plus years of on the road .   My two grand babies were taken to Emergency Care while there with throat infection and bronchitis BUT they were troopers and carried on .  The family put together a box(shinny) with notes from special people , friends and family .  I have not read any because if I start crying I will not stop so waiting till after I am fully awake and surgery is over .  

These pics don’t scratch the surface of all the pics taken this past weekend , but they show some of the love that this family has for each other .  I am VERY VERY BLESSED.   The love and prayers that so many people have shown me over the past 6 months is unreal .  I never in my lifetime would have ever thought with this disease, that so much support would be shown towards me .  I have had calls ,cards, and text throughout this ordeal and I have been blown away with all the love shown.  Yes, I am scared for the surgery in the morning, but I also know in the bottom of my heart that God has plans for me.  I know the journey will be like the other disease that God and myself fought and defeated ( alcoholism) BUT again the faith and Love I have for God will pull me through this difficult trial ahead.    My boyfriend again has shown unwavering love and support throughout this entire journey of CANCER.  He has prepared me for the 7 to 10 days in hospital by buying me a I pad with Bose headphones to get away from it all and listen quietly.  He bought me a James Avery cross necklace and bracelet and much more but his strength and love has been my backbone.  My brother Brad is unbelievable and his love is unmatched.   These two men and all the prayers will get me past this very difficult task at hand the next 10 days …. My family and friends I cannot tell you much I appreciate and love each one of you.  This road looks long , curvy , up hills and down, long stretches of isolation, and roadblocks but I have complete faith that God is working on my behalf to live.  I may have to change my lifestyle after the surgery but it will not be the first time I adjust to my circumstances.  Alcoholism is a disease just like Cancer and both cannot be beaten without God and Believing.   We all have been down the CANCER journey together for 6 months and we will go down the recovery together too.   I love love each one of you and Thank You for everything .   Keep the prayers coming for sure the next 28 hours  Please …….god has this ❤️

SURGERY & BELIEVE

 

GOT OUR TREE UP...SO PROUD OF IT.   BRUCE AND I PICKED IT OUT TOGETHER LAST YEAR AND WE PUT IT UP TOGETHER....LOVE IT 

WOW WOW.  THEY DID IT 

Heidi and KK at Tioga Halloween Festival

Emma and KK at the festival.....

Well, Here goes.....

After, I saw my second surgeon who said If we all decide to go further   it will be a difficult time ahead.  He was evaluating me the whole time to see if he was going to approve me for surgery.  If I was not so in shape ( played tennis 3 to 4 days a week ) and positive attitude he may have said no ....I am blessed to be given this chance at all.  I have thanked God so much for giving me a chance to fight for my life.   I know in my heart now there are so so many that it was too late to even try.  Thank you God ......I will continue getting closer and closer to God ...I have found that friend with unconditional love and respect   GOD. !!!!!!

SO AFTER the 2nd dr. explained how they will stretch my intestines up to my neck and cut half my stomach off , etc ( at that point I pass out  lol lol .....thank goodness Brad my brother was there and explained it was just a panic attack and i will be fine in 15 min, and not to hospitalize me ) after waking up I get the final red flag

The new stretch of everything and new connections....it all has to live ......no part can die .......

SUMMARY

December 20th 8am

6-8  hour surgery 

7-10 days in hosp.( 1-3 in ITC)

THE HEART HOSPITAL IN PLANO 

I was so numb and in disbelief, I basically just realized I have CANCER and a very serious one....I know now that if i had known all this 50/50,it is like open heart surgery,very hard to recover,etc I am not sure I would have been so upbeat and positive throughout all the treatments....so,god knew that the least amount   of information was the best at that time..  I will be honest, It hit hard.  For over a week I looked at my life and what would i change?   NOTHING....I started praying for more thankfulness , giving,love,

forgiveness, but mainly to accept death.  I prayed when I was baptized 3 years ago at Prestonwood In Plano ( Martha has the pic).  I had been sprinkled as a baby but to be baptized like Jesus was my desire.. To have that on my heart then I believe he was preparing me for the battle with cancer.. My walk with God started being Amazing when he helped me get Sober 8 years ago.  but this cancer walk has brought us together so tight and AMAZING BEYOND AMAZING ....The word BELIEVE has always been a very special word since high school to me...In school, it was for sports, then I realized I relate to it more biblically .....These days it is MY PRAYER EVERY DAY TO BELIEVE in his plan.....I so so so believe he has some more plans for me BUT I do know it will be a very very difficult road    I have never really ever done it the easy way LOL LOL  but I have learned and grown with every one of the bad choices I made and I am Proud Of who God has built so far and looking forward to what he does in the future..

I BELIEVE .............

PRAYERS FOR SURGERY AND ALL THE MEDICAL STAFF,FAMILY MEMBERS,ALL CANCER PATIENTS,ILLNESS

THANKS SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL THE PRAYERS

KEEP THEM COMING

I LOVE ALL OF YOU 

GOD BLESS