SURGERY & BELIEVE

 

GOT OUR TREE UP...SO PROUD OF IT.   BRUCE AND I PICKED IT OUT TOGETHER LAST YEAR AND WE PUT IT UP TOGETHER....LOVE IT 

WOW WOW.  THEY DID IT 

Heidi and KK at Tioga Halloween Festival

Emma and KK at the festival.....

Well, Here goes.....

After, I saw my second surgeon who said If we all decide to go further   it will be a difficult time ahead.  He was evaluating me the whole time to see if he was going to approve me for surgery.  If I was not so in shape ( played tennis 3 to 4 days a week ) and positive attitude he may have said no ....I am blessed to be given this chance at all.  I have thanked God so much for giving me a chance to fight for my life.   I know in my heart now there are so so many that it was too late to even try.  Thank you God ......I will continue getting closer and closer to God ...I have found that friend with unconditional love and respect   GOD. !!!!!!

SO AFTER the 2nd dr. explained how they will stretch my intestines up to my neck and cut half my stomach off , etc ( at that point I pass out  lol lol .....thank goodness Brad my brother was there and explained it was just a panic attack and i will be fine in 15 min, and not to hospitalize me ) after waking up I get the final red flag

The new stretch of everything and new connections....it all has to live ......no part can die .......

SUMMARY

December 20th 8am

6-8  hour surgery 

7-10 days in hosp.( 1-3 in ITC)

THE HEART HOSPITAL IN PLANO 

I was so numb and in disbelief, I basically just realized I have CANCER and a very serious one....I know now that if i had known all this 50/50,it is like open heart surgery,very hard to recover,etc I am not sure I would have been so upbeat and positive throughout all the treatments....so,god knew that the least amount   of information was the best at that time..  I will be honest, It hit hard.  For over a week I looked at my life and what would i change?   NOTHING....I started praying for more thankfulness , giving,love,

forgiveness, but mainly to accept death.  I prayed when I was baptized 3 years ago at Prestonwood In Plano ( Martha has the pic).  I had been sprinkled as a baby but to be baptized like Jesus was my desire.. To have that on my heart then I believe he was preparing me for the battle with cancer.. My walk with God started being Amazing when he helped me get Sober 8 years ago.  but this cancer walk has brought us together so tight and AMAZING BEYOND AMAZING ....The word BELIEVE has always been a very special word since high school to me...In school, it was for sports, then I realized I relate to it more biblically .....These days it is MY PRAYER EVERY DAY TO BELIEVE in his plan.....I so so so believe he has some more plans for me BUT I do know it will be a very very difficult road    I have never really ever done it the easy way LOL LOL  but I have learned and grown with every one of the bad choices I made and I am Proud Of who God has built so far and looking forward to what he does in the future..

I BELIEVE .............

PRAYERS FOR SURGERY AND ALL THE MEDICAL STAFF,FAMILY MEMBERS,ALL CANCER PATIENTS,ILLNESS

THANKS SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL THE PRAYERS

KEEP THEM COMING

I LOVE ALL OF YOU 

GOD BLESS