Surgery Time is here

Sitting here the day before surgery numb and anxious until I stopped and thanked God.  I honestly feel the need to thank god all day for giving me another chance to live.  This surgery will be very intense and tough but I got this BECAUSE I have God in my corner .   Do you have God in your corner ?If not , I highly recommend getting to know him !!!!!!!!!

Below is family pics of our early Christmas this year in broken Bow ……Everyone came and wow what an awesome time we had .   My brother Craig came in after over 2 plus years of on the road .   My two grand babies were taken to Emergency Care while there with throat infection and bronchitis BUT they were troopers and carried on .  The family put together a box(shinny) with notes from special people , friends and family .  I have not read any because if I start crying I will not stop so waiting till after I am fully awake and surgery is over .  

These pics don’t scratch the surface of all the pics taken this past weekend , but they show some of the love that this family has for each other .  I am VERY VERY BLESSED.   The love and prayers that so many people have shown me over the past 6 months is unreal .  I never in my lifetime would have ever thought with this disease, that so much support would be shown towards me .  I have had calls ,cards, and text throughout this ordeal and I have been blown away with all the love shown.  Yes, I am scared for the surgery in the morning, but I also know in the bottom of my heart that God has plans for me.  I know the journey will be like the other disease that God and myself fought and defeated ( alcoholism) BUT again the faith and Love I have for God will pull me through this difficult trial ahead.    My boyfriend again has shown unwavering love and support throughout this entire journey of CANCER.  He has prepared me for the 7 to 10 days in hospital by buying me a I pad with Bose headphones to get away from it all and listen quietly.  He bought me a James Avery cross necklace and bracelet and much more but his strength and love has been my backbone.  My brother Brad is unbelievable and his love is unmatched.   These two men and all the prayers will get me past this very difficult task at hand the next 10 days …. My family and friends I cannot tell you much I appreciate and love each one of you.  This road looks long , curvy , up hills and down, long stretches of isolation, and roadblocks but I have complete faith that God is working on my behalf to live.  I may have to change my lifestyle after the surgery but it will not be the first time I adjust to my circumstances.  Alcoholism is a disease just like Cancer and both cannot be beaten without God and Believing.   We all have been down the CANCER journey together for 6 months and we will go down the recovery together too.   I love love each one of you and Thank You for everything .   Keep the prayers coming for sure the next 28 hours  Please …….god has this ❤️